I was taking a drive to get a couple of packs of cigarettes when I ended up on the highway. I felt a moment of freedom and stood on that gas pedal until I realized that I could lose my license for the pleasure of passing other cars at close to the speed of light.

I did get my smokes and I did make it home.

And I came upon a realization:
The only enjoyment in life is when you’re actually enjoying life.

We are slaves to the “routine”, chained to the “life” that we think is the right path. What if we are wrong?

Do you remember your first love? Of course you do. We all have those memories of innocence, youth and love.

The memory persists but the love was lost and if you think back to that episode of your life you’ll find the reason why you lost on love.

And it’s not for me to tell you why, you already know.

Inexperience and the inability to communicate intelligently without losing your voice to the emotional feelings of love is the big wall that your love could not develop around. It sure was mine, way back then.

As we get older, and gain experience and understand the world around us and our place in it, love becomes harder to find but no less than our assured ability to communicate to others can remain to be that big wall that still obstructs us from finding and managing love.

There is help.